午後の雨 / Rain in the Afternoon

らくがき未満 / less than sketches

Questions about “meaning of my life"

What is a question recalled when we close our eyes?
 
One of them is the question about meaning of our lives, everyone may think it once.
Actually, when we walk around a city, we can easily find advatisements that tell you “I'll teach you your meaning of life” by new religions.
 
Behind of the question, there is a feeling or an anxiety that we have no meaning to our lives.
 
“Meaning of my life” has 2 aspects. (1)meaning of my life for groups(society/family…etc) (2)meaning of my life for myself.
 
I think the most important aspect is (2), because It’s radical and difficult to prove by logic.
Proving the meaning of my life by using myself is impossible, or becoming tautology.
 
In my case, when I was an undergraduate student, I thought too much about (2), then I got sickness.
Finally, I found a strong conviction that “I feel, therefore I am.” and “Live a Life is expressing myself or environment”.
Hence, I could have come back to my daily life.
 
Or, I also think it is not important to answer the question.
 
We are the one who have our own empty bottles.
Bottles distinguish inner/outer, but no contents exist.
 
What we put in the bottle is a category of our freedom.
 
It may be a severe winter of the north island, passionate sex without reason or everything you want to put in.
 
Finally, contents of bottles will disappear, nothing will be left.
There will be empty again, I think.
 
Near the campus of my university, there is a statue of budda.
Under the statue, it is written:
 
涅槃静寂
 
I’m not buddhist or researcher of buddhism, so I only enjoy interpreting
by myself.
They are meaningful words, I think.